Know about which is in dark in the scene of knowledge ,I think here this is a platform where I can write words?

Being a human , I sometimes think about myself and other what I can do for me and others but the same time also hit my mind that what will be there after if it will be wrong what will be punishment for that ,this age I could not bear a punishments . So every work for any decision should be perfect before go ahead , some times I think that I with my new friends will fly around the world and celebrate to all my friends fun joy of life . sometimes think I spend my time in a dark home where no one will present only I. Life is nothing but full of sorrow , tragedy , bluff & cowardliness & selfish what may be we can say . some time I think that there is no love full of sorrow . I feel guilty when I think very deeply .I could not write anything more this time . It will be pleasure for me if write any more and more with summery of life , If it may be my own languages I can write more and more ...rest if the system provides then I can write another day ,hope this can be viewed my imaginations .